Music is wonderful isn't it?
Life has changed so much since the last entry. I really don't even know how to feel. I'm on higher medication and will likely increase it again. Alexander and I are still dating, although there have been some moments where I've questioned if that is the best for us. As he struggles with the problems in his family, I struggle with myself. My mind.
Sometimes I really wish I didn't have to think so deeply about things all the time. I struggle to ever take something at face value. I know that it helps me see through a lot of things people say, but at the same time the constant questioning of why someone said what they did, what are they trying to get out of me, what's in it for them...it gets tiring.
I just quit my job today. You would think, after the hell they had put me through, that I would feel relieved. The strongest emotion I've been able to figure out I have is sadness. I just adored all but 1 person in that hospital. And of course, she had to be the one who gets to boss me around. I have never quit a job I have loved [and hated] so much. I found out later today that she was planning on firing me tomorrow. Most people would be relieved that quit at the right time, but I'm infuriated that someone would claim to have a good reason to fire me.
I wish I had the chance to write more. The title of this entry doesn't even make sense. Write more soon [hopefully]!
Life has changed so much since the last entry. I really don't even know how to feel. I'm on higher medication and will likely increase it again. Alexander and I are still dating, although there have been some moments where I've questioned if that is the best for us. As he struggles with the problems in his family, I struggle with myself. My mind.
Sometimes I really wish I didn't have to think so deeply about things all the time. I struggle to ever take something at face value. I know that it helps me see through a lot of things people say, but at the same time the constant questioning of why someone said what they did, what are they trying to get out of me, what's in it for them...it gets tiring.
I just quit my job today. You would think, after the hell they had put me through, that I would feel relieved. The strongest emotion I've been able to figure out I have is sadness. I just adored all but 1 person in that hospital. And of course, she had to be the one who gets to boss me around. I have never quit a job I have loved [and hated] so much. I found out later today that she was planning on firing me tomorrow. Most people would be relieved that quit at the right time, but I'm infuriated that someone would claim to have a good reason to fire me.
I wish I had the chance to write more. The title of this entry doesn't even make sense. Write more soon [hopefully]!
